i got up early today i dunno y i didnt go to bed till like 2 or 3. its boring my grandparents are here we have been going to the hosptial and visiting my great grandmom cuz she crushed her arm. shes not getting any better but shes not getting worse. And old ppl dont heal quick anyway  maybe shell get better i really want her to. the other day we went to go see her n there was this lady named wilma she was so funny frist she farted and she was like oh exscuse me n me n ashley started busting up laughing and then this nurse came in and was like alright time to do ur lung exersizes or w/e its called n she had to breath out of this thing n fog came out of the end of it n she was like look i get to smoke my peace pipe it was so funny. And she was wearing this rainbow moomoo and she was like i seen this moomoo in peeples and i just had to have it. i havent had time to call anyone or hang out with anyone! i think my hair got alot longer from where it was when skool let out. soon ill have long hair again. i need to die it b4 skool starts cuz its dark on the tips and light on the top n then my roots are growing out a lil n there dark n it looks dumb. my poppop is kinda creepy! i dunno y just get a weird feeling around him hes just creepy and hes really smart he works for nasa in arizona and he makes the lazers they put in guns and rockets n stuff. And we have to watch the discovery channel. And talk about stuff that i dont understand. i like tlkin to my other poppop alot better. i really need to get outta this house im going crazy but i cant leave cuz my parents are retarded...

i havent writen in this thing cuz it got old and i dont feel like making a my space thingy. but anyways alot has happened. my grandmom mitchell fell and crushed her arm and shes not doing good. we went to visit her the other day i thought it was gonna suck but it was alright!!! shes 91. i dunno if shes gonna get better but i really hope she dose shes still really smart its kida hard to understand what shes saying but shes senile or how ever u spell that. when we went there she was sleeping but she kept waking up cuz her brains trying to heal her arm so its not working the other organs and her blatter is messed up and she kept having to go to the bathroom. And my mommom kathy and my poppop mike are comming again from arizona cuz everyone thinks shes not gonna make it n its pissing me off kinda cuz there tlkin like shes already gone. But i cant wait to see my mommom she smokes pot gets drunk n wears thongs shes crazy. and when she was younger she tould me her n her best friend used to take acid. but i shouldnt do it. And my cuzin netta is locked up and no1 will tell me what she did so it must be somrthing really bad. And little man is still wanted he said he was gonna turn himself in cuz we put our house on bond for him but who knows whats gonna happen i had a dream that i was like 25 or summin n he came over with his kids to visit my house n he was so nasty lookin and he was beggin me 4 money. i really dont want that to happen to him cuz hes basically my brother. drugs are nasty they make me sick. i dunno if my mommom n poppop are staying with us cuz my uncle larry is staying here with us. his daughter jessica's grandfather is missing hes senial and he said he was going outside and he walked off and no1 knows where he is. my mom said he prolly passed away cuz if hes out in the heat theres no way. i keep getting this gross image in my head of him lieing in the woods i know its sick to think about. my cuzin jessica is nasty 2 she was locked up for doing drugs she got her baby micheal taken away from her my aunt debbies got him now and her other son russell she dosent give two shits about. And my dads sister sondra moved to deleware n i heard my mom tlkin to sum1 she moved there to live in a drug house and my poppop jerry has her kid steven. im never doing hard core drugs i feel bad 4 the ppl that do. i dunno how they could even do them i get scared. its boring my moms at the hosptial and my sisters are ignoring me and i dunno where my dad is.

its only like a month or summin like that till skool starts n i really dont feel like going. i bairly go i cant stand certian types of ppl and when ever i try thats when i start getting suspended. and i get suspended for the dumbest shit like writing a note. and they can suspend you for comming in late to many times and i guess they look for reasons. And the girls in my skool are fuckin nasty they think if they dont fuck atleast 10 ppl by the time there 14 its jsut not kool.

thats all 4 now ~

hung out with thaoy yesterday it was fun i missed that asian we sat in my room and talked for a log time then i put a colar on her n walked my asian around the house and put n a show 4 her. then sarah came n we watched sum movie i cant tell if thao n sarah get along but towards then end they where laughin together and stuff!~ and i talked to louis early this morning man i miss him me n him where best friends back in the day. And i was an asshole n broke his heart. i dont feel good and i cant find my cell phone.

write more sum other time ~

mang i was supos2 hang out with thaoy but i feel asleep im so mad at myself i slept till like 8 at night n i wake up n amy and ashley where sitting in my bed telling me about how they where riding the 4weelers by the highway and saw sum guy taking a shit lol they where busting up !!! mang and i missed it. i went to bed kinda early last night so i could get up today i dunno what im doing yet! i hate rain i want it to be sunny out so i can lay out i need to get dark b4 skool. cuz i hate being pale but im afraid of tanning beds i had a dream i got cooked in one. ~

but anywayys ill write more when ever

 ~ my car that i dont have yet

~ but i will

~ favorites ~
girl name: Esmarelda

boy name: Gabriel

song: when can i see you~ babyface i dont wanna know~ mario winans

shoe: tims I have 5 or 6 pairs

color: green grey and blue

food:  everything accept lazana

sport: i dont do sports but i boxed when i was 14

day: saturdays

shampoo: garnie frutic ~ i think thats how u spell it

deoderant: i dunno its in a blue thingy

subject: in skool? nothing

holiday: halloween

electronic: cell phone

TV show: Degrassi ~ its on noggin lol and sailor moon ~ its a anime cartoon

movie: i dunno i like scary movies

animal: snakes,cats,dogs and spiders

actor: umm chad michal murry ~ prolly spelled that wrong

actress: christina ricci

music artist: mariah carey, 2pac

band: i dont like bands but i like boys II men and 112 ~ and groups like that

book: i dont read anymore but i used to be into the harry potter books and lord of the ring books